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Date: June 12, 2010

Books & DVDs Kingdom Chums by SQuire Rushnell Read Our Letter To Parents When God Winks on New Beginnings by SQuire Rushnell Sale Price: $15.98 When God Winks by SQuire Rushnell Sale Price: $16.00 When God Winks on Love by SQuire Rushnell Sale Price: $14.98 When God Winks at You by SQuire Rushnell Sale Price: $17.99

On April 24, 2010, my 40-year old husband died unexpectedly from a massive heart attack. Our 19th anniversary would have been Tuesday, May 18. I miss my husband so much, but God is filling the empty spaces. I feel certain that God is in control...and He is giving me the privilege of seeing His hand at work....just one of the countless winks follows:

On Friday, May 14, my sister and I went to the federal building in downtown Little Rock for my Social Security appointment. At exactly my appointment time, I am called to window 9. We sit down and are facing a very pleasant young woman with a quiet demeanor. I was immediately comfortable with her. Not knowing what to expect, I was relieved it wasn't someone grouchy or insensitive. We spent approximately 20 minutes with me giving her information to put in the system. She asked me for the kids' birth certificates. She noticed that my daughter was born in Monticello and seems surprised - as if she was expecting it to say Little Rock. Then she noticed that my son was born in Pine Bluff. The dialogue was as follows: "Y'all sure did a lot of jumping around! Pine Bluff, Monticello, Little Rock..."

I explained that we were actually in Monticello when Nate was born. She begins, "I lived in Monticello from '95 to '02." Very matter-of-fact, no hint or suggestion that our paths ever crossed.

I replied, "Brad actually graduated from UAM in '95, then he went to work for the banks." The young woman got a puzzled look on her face. She asked, "Did he go by Brad?" (all the documents stated his given name, Bradley) I said yes. Then she said, "That name sounds familiar. Did he work at Heartland Bank?" I said yes, again. "Was he a loan officer?" Again, yes. I show her a picture. She looks at it, smiles, then starts nodding her head yes. Then the most amazing thing happened. Tears welled up in her eyes and she started talking... "I knew him. He got me up on my feet when I was a student. He gave me a signature loan to help me get started.....I had nothing, I was a student. He was a great judge of character - he always knew when my son's father and I were 'on the rocks.' In fact, about 6 months before we split up, Brad went through and took my name off all the loans so I wouldn't be responsible for the debt he was in - Brad basically built my credit."

Past this point, my memory is fuzzy because I was so stunned to be sitting in the Social Security office listening to a total stranger tell me how my husband helped her many years ago.

Jennifer